People can be cruel

Ouch!
I didn't mean to hurt you
Wow!
You don't surprise me
Ewww!
I just said I love you
Hmmm!
You don't mean much to me

I say what I think you will respond best to
because if I am nothing
then you will mean something
and to overt any feelings of attachment
I will say anything to make you cry.

I see the light

No darkness surrounds me.
I see the light.
No blank canvas before me
I can configure an artistic command
swiping my brush across the surface
I can deliver an undiscovered creation
The light is bright and boastful
proud and lively
drawing me away from heaviness
because the light represents lightness
a feather I can control the direction in which it falls
A truth I can accept
No darkness surrounds me
I can see the light.

Clean Slate New Day

Starting over. Something that requires true inner strength and ambition. 2/12/13 Tuesday 8:00am. The sunlight pierced through my eyelids like an intentional wake up call; almost as though I was being called to begin the beginnings of the rest of my life. I knew that if I continued lying down, I would slip back into an unworthy undesired comatose slumber. Something inside of me was driving me to lift my mind beaten, soul wretched, scorned heart body to life. My time of slumber was over. The only thought that was on my mind is to start! To believe! To endure! To become whole again; even more so. I am a clean slate because I am living in the now. My mind is not done thinking. Blood courses through my veins with a vengeance to remind me of my existence on this planet earth. Why waste another day? I'm not lazy. I was only broken. But now the pieces are coming together in my mind, to form a logical stance against inadequacy. This new found life. This unwavering truth. I begin my journey, with the sun on my side. Good morning world.